depressing depressing depressing
i went to the hospital today for my check up
i suck
23rd sept need go back to pock needles into my body
....
i dun wanna TnT
well, i cant do anything about that though
guess i will just have to accept it
SMILE AND LIVE IT ON!!!!!!
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rather than me being anxious about my own health,
i guess its my mom who was being nervous.
haha.
she was like sighing away and on the verge of tears
i was trying to calm her down,
the doctor said i was very 'cool' to be so calm
actually,
i guess i just dont know how to express myself
i tot that if i cried,
my whole family would be sad
who wants that
i rather just suck it in, get on with it and go off
its better than crying
its not just embarrassing,
but it will also make others worry for me
its not like i cant handle myself
but i just prefer to do it alone.
loner....who cares
i just have to ignore everything
the pain,
the sadness
the agony.......
but the most worrying is
that i would not have enough time left to study for EOYs
sigh...
my life sucks...
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i feel pathetic nowadays...
dont you?
i guess u dont...
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i just want to meet a nice person,
spend time with everyone,
eat nice things,
have a nice life,
so on and so for....
but its all not within my reach.
too bad too sad.
i guess my luck ran out...
=.=
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i shall just ignore and heck care everything
to hell with this and that!
i dont give a damn-
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stupid life...
how i wish mine was like Bella's
so nice and perfect...